I’m still here

It’s been 75 days since my last drink.  I haven’t heard from any of my readers; maybe nobody is reading my blog any more, I don’t know.  But just in case, I wanted to let you know, dear Reader, that it is possible to stop drinking.  I can honestly say that even though I still have the urge to just take myself off the grid, plunge into something that will make my mind take a reality break, relax me so I won’t feel guilty all the time, I don’t want the booze.  The thought of drinking brings back a lot of bad memories.

It’s been a very tough road.  Along with the alcohol, I tried to cut back on the clonazepam, which was an absolute nightmare.  I’m seeing a shrink now, who put me on Zoloft, bringing my medication total to 6 daily prescriptions.  In fact, after I take my morning pills, I’m not hungry for breakfast.  Weird, huh?  I don’t like being on medicine, especially the stuff that messes with your head, but I’m following his advice for now.

Just a quick little check-in.  Don’t have anything profound to say.  Just wanted to tell the world, 75 days, I did it!  And so can you.

Take care

-Mark

5 thoughts on “I’m still here”

  1. Mark just ran across your blog. Im almost exactly like you were/are. How are the cravings? You do it on your own or rely on any suppliments? Religion? 8 days and going strong on my own. Anybody suggest over the counter help that might help? I cant sleep at all at night!! Anything out there?

  2. My cravings aren’t gone, and probably never will be. I still daydream about getting a case of Jim Beam and just drinking myself to death, but the thought of drinking brings back bad memories and I don’t really want to go there again. I pretty much quit on my own. I think I eventually just got tired of it all. Therapy helped, and I did a lot of praying, meditating and exercising. I still take Benadryl to fall asleep at night. Melatonin is good too. It’s a herb and not medicine, but I find it builds up in my body and I end up falling asleep during the day. I’ve been taking vitamins for years. You might want to check out the B vitamin drops that you put under your tongue. They work really well.

    If you read the “Christian Alcoholic” post it’s got just about everything that I could remember in it – kind of a summary that I wrote before I forgot the details of this journey of mine. Of course, I tried to quit a lot of times before I was able to actually do it. If you’ve made it past the first week, you’re doing great! The alcohol is completely out of your system so your cravings now are all in your head. They feel real enough, I know, believe me, but you’re over the first hurdle.

    Take care and God bless. You can do this…
    -Mark

  3. I just wanted to let you know I am still reading your blog. I love reading your blog.
    I am happy for you Mark!
    -Julie

  4. Hey there Mark,

    I guess you closed comments on your “Last Call program review” thread. I just wanted to let you know I read it from start to finish. Thank you for sharing all your ups and downs. I went through a similar process in my 20’s when I was fighting an eating disorder.

    Fast forward to now: I have been considering purchasing that product and yours is the ONLY independent review I’ve been able to find. It seems kind of strange to me that everything out there is AdvantCare marketing material.

    I am what I would call a “heavy social drinker”. I don’t blackout (well I guess I sort of did once, although it wasn’t exactly a blackout — I lost track of where I was in the house and did something I cannot believe I did).

    I was drinking 7 days a week – 3-4 strong drinks a day (I am female and weigh 112 so that’s a lot for me). I noticed that I was building up tolerance – I could easily drink that much and not even feel it. I don’t really want to completely QUIT, I just want to be able to drink socially and not every day. I’m not really an “all-or-nothing” kind of person… I’m all about moderation and balance. So, I tend to do OK for awhile with reducing my alcohol consumption, then a few months later, I’m back to 3-4 strong drinks a day. I recently turned 51 and I’ve recommitted to reducing how much I drink. Doing fine so far, so I don’t think I *need* the $800 program.

    I did find this program which I may try for support: http://www.myselfhelpworks.com. I found this through my employer’s health insurance website. I also bought “Kudzu root extract” supplement (same main ingredient that’s in the Sobrexa product).

    1. No, I didn’t close the comments. I guess it’s just messed up. Maybe it automatically blocks them after a year, who knows. I’m know expert. (Actually that’s true. My Youtube channel is KnowExpert 😉

      I hope the other program works for you. I know the I used to love the Kalmaro, but I can’t afford it. I wish you well on your journey. I’m 48 myself and the reality of having a limited lifespan is something I can’t hide from any more. I think I quit just in time. My blood work was just starting to show signs of trouble. Now if I could just get off of the (*#&^#$%@$!!#! Clonazepam and Zoloft…

      Anyway, thanks for your comment, I’m glad someone is still reading my blog. I’m impressed that you read the whole thing, wow! Good luck to you, God bless, and hang in there…

      -Mark

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